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10-8-10
A song I wrote reads more like a rap song.
Sometimes I wince and man because the emotions/pain becomes physical pain: Grief. I miss Michael.
Something is stirring in me and it’s not good.
10-12-10
Reflecting on a recent picture of K-Ci and Jo Jo I saw. It was in regard to their new reality show. K-Ci has lost the light in his eyes. There used to be a certain shine or life and it’s gone. The pupils are dead. I think the light in his eyes was the thing that made him so ugly he looked good.
November should be an interesting month. I won’t be busy every weekend.
I have really been feeling the need to proactively date. It’s been 5 years since I was last in a relationship and all of my other activities are no longer keeping me leveled. I don’t think they ever have. Guess I been lying to myself.
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