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6-26-10
I decided not to avoid playing Mike all weekend. They played I’ve Been A Fool on KJLH. I started feeling sad. I tried suppressing the tears. I’ve been whimpering and looking for a BOA I ended up in Encino on Hayvenhurst. Didn’t look like nobody was outside the house. What luck? Not really luck. I didn’t even think I’d be over here today. I finally broke down crying. Once when I laid down to go to sleep (my optimum think too much time) and again while driving on the 405. You know what’s hurtful; None of my immediate family reached out to me yesterday. I got more love and concern from friend and sorors than the people I live with. Sad. Living here this way has lead me to believe that whatever happiness I am to get out of life is to stem from my relationships with people outside of my family.
I kinda hate I even bought that gift. When I was in Encino I accidentally found Jerry’s Deli that TMZ saw Ron Jeremy and Chandler from friends at. I now know where Stevie’s is at too. Cried about 5 times total in the past 24 hours (sigh).
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