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I bought a new commemorative issue of Ebony. There is a difference between a Special Tribute Issue and a Commemorative Issue. Have you ever read something and had to just cuss out loud and kind of jump around. Michael Eric Dyson just made me do that, when reading his article about Mike in this new Ebony. Brought tears to my eyes too. I’m so tired of crying and feeling this way, I sometimes wish I could be hypnotized and forget. Is forgetting better than living with this pain? I live the dance of the mournful moth. Like, sometimes I just want to jump in head first and wiggle my toes, spread my fingers, and kick my legs in his music, in his world. But these days, sometimes when I get there the feeling is cold and I find myself clamming up, getting goose bumps, feeling nervous, and just wanting to run far far away and hide in the nearest bear’s cave.
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