Author: wpps-support

June 29, 2009 What is life, but a feigned attempt at immorality? For all of the world’s worth, it comes down to nothing, really. What is a girl, but a reflection of generations of femininity? What is a boy, but the shadow and future bread of what his father wishes to be? Do you wake…

I feel sick. I have had bouts of nervousness throughout the day. I’m scared and I don’t comprehend this. There are so many unanswered questions. I cannot, will not accept this. God, if I feel this way as a fan, I cannot imagine how his family and friends feel.6/28/09 11:11pm Two months til his birthday….

It’s 1:09am June 27, 2009. I just got back from Hayvenhurst. AMAZINGLY, I didn’t cry. I don’t know what was going on because all indicators (based on my bursts of tears throughout the day and the butterflies in my stomach as I drove to Encino) said I was going to break down. But I didn’t….

June 27-28 2009 I submerged myself. Thanks to Taryn I went out to Mingle & Plei and the DJ played a lot of Mike. The TVs were also on VH1’s Mike tribute. I got to hear lovely one, heart break hotel, and can you feel it aloud. I got to watch MJ videos for the…

June 26, 2009 I was up so late my eyes burned a deep hot maddening red until 1 something this morning…just to wake up at 5:34am and wallow in despair. I don’t know how I am supposed to get through this. There is a gaping hole in my heart. I can’t hear his music, it…

June 25, 2009 Never have I felt so much pain and wept an ache inducing cry. Now I know how it feels to lose someone you love. I don’t know how me waking to see another day will be. I have lost my hope. That shining bauble, just out of reach, but there….there for me…