Author: wpps-support

July 8 2009 It’s July 8th and I awoke to another day of emptiness and irritation. I’m in disbelief. Did I really go where I went yesterday? I’ll keep holding out hope that this is a mistake. A cruel joke. THIS CAN’T BE? I love you. For those of you who were not able to…

When will they learn that everything does not revolve around them? While they are on the main stage being self absorbed, I am in the dark corners of the room suffering from heartache and heartbreak. Please be considerate of others for you do not know the pain they suffer.7-8-09 by

July 7 2009 I had a dream during the wee hours of this morning. I met Mike and he was acting, He was better then we thought he would be. It was a role that displayed anger and assertiveness. I think my mom and some kid or two was with us. We got the hook…

July 6 2009 Went to pick up the tickets today. The closer I got the more nervous I felt. Felt like I had the bubble guts. The Dodger Stadium employees were all excited like…Welcome to Dodgers Stadium, Congratulations on winning the lottery! I couldn’t match their enthusiasm. It was a pretty quick deal since we…

July 5 2009 I think I am running out of things to say. I’m just melancholy. Now I am very aware of the songs that are in my head. Like right now Bless His Soul is playing. That song sounds painful. Like he wants to please everyone…make everyone happy, but he is miserable on the…

July 4 2009 Was watching CNN Headline News. They ran a story about the casket Mike is going to have. Some gold thing from Batesville, IN. The little white people are all excited about him being buried in one of their town’s caskets. Misplaced excitement is what I call it. They say it’s the same…

July 3 2009 I feel nervous till. Bought the People magazine with Mike on it. I feel sad too. This whole thing feels not right. In the last pic of him from Tuesday’s rehearsal he has his Blood on the Dance Floor hair. I like the ensemble. That red shirt really makes it pop although…

July 2 2009 It was a week ago today and I feel as if my soul has been raked over hot coals. The month of June will always be a melancholy one henceforth. His beauty haunts me. This just really makes no sense to me. It all feels very unreal. I know I keep saying…

July 1 2009 It was just last week that I was watching the Dangerous Tour Rehearsals and playing Going Places, The Jacksons Live, and Destiny albums in my car. During the rehearsals a rope swung above his head just missing him and he just looked up and said…interesting. He wore a neon green button up…

June 30 2009 Dreaming of a brighter tomorrow, where the sun’s rays dance circles on my face. The moon’s glow leaves pallor on the human race. Where balloons float on high with love. Where flowers bloom and their stem, a dove. I dream of clouds with a gentle mist. And stares that come with a…