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Going through some drafts that were never published and decided to create a series of old incomplete thoughts. I want to let these posts stay where they are-in that time and space where I was really feeling and living and growing. You gotta go through it to get to the other side. Looking back, I am so glad the man I wrote this about is out of my life. I don’t want to go back…I am better off alone. And I am also resolved not to date men with kids. Selfishness?
Are my expectations too high? I expect to see and hear from you more. I’m mad you called off work yet didn’t spend any time with me. I guess I can understand the need to recharge, recuperate and what not, but the stress of your life is not my doing so why am I over here lonely and sacrificing because you made poor life decisions? Am I selfish because I want more time or at least more communication in regard to your life and what you are going through?
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