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6-9-10
Today has been a blessing. I watched Shakeabadadown videos on YouTube and didn’t cry. I had an upset coworker who sings Shakeabadadown because of my influence so I decided to show her some videos to cheer her up. It felt so good. God is Awesome! Like, I forgot how great I felt when watching him before. I’m so glad she was upset or I wouldn’t have watched them. I was just singing and dancing in my seat with 89% abandonment.
I really need to go out and drank and bounce up on some fine ass men to get my mind right. I am really into escapism lately. Tryin’ to find that altered state where shit ain’t so heavy.
I have another colleague who is singing Shakeabadadown and even decided to start watching MJ videos. I have really enjoyed spreading the love today. MJTTDIDAB
Ok, Miss Diana Ross the Mothafuckin Goddamn Boss! (it was that tight I had to cuss 2 times in a row to illustrate the magnitude of the tightness) Man, that lady is so baaadddddd! You know she came up out of the stage with that hair and a big lime green dress on. Sang some songs. Sounding Good, Looking Good. Then she took the lime green thing off and had on a black/silver sequined dress. Then we had a wardrobe change into red sequin. The red cover up got taken off to show a red dress. Then we had a wardrobe change to blue sequin. Then we had a wardrobe change into a pink poofy frilly cute ass number. Then we had a wardrobe change into GOLD sequin. Then we had a wardrobe change into an off white champagne sequin. Then we had a wardrobe change into a white silvery sequin.
She sounded just as good as when I saw her 2 years ago at the Gibson. The audience was hella hype. It was nice to see all kinds of people, all different ages. I love seeing beautiful things like that…another reason I am glad I live in LA. Just so cute. PowerPoint’s are in these days. She had a lot of kewl beauty shot/video footage going. And shit was just sparking and shining and there were flowers and all kinds of eye candy going on. I got choked up at the beginning of the show because I knew the inevitable was coming. She sang some song about yesteryear or something and had a slideshow of Motown artists and I knew his picture was coming. And as I expected I cried later on in the night. Worked really hard to keep the tears from falling, but to no avail. At the end she said a few words and then sang I’m Missing You and said he children were in the audience in which people got all antsy in their seats like they wanted the children’s autographs. Leave the damn children alone. She then sang You Are Not Alone. So sweet. There were 3 pictures that they showed. Photo from the BAD photo shoot. Photo from what looked like it could have been The Chase commercial and then one of their photos together from that early 80’s photo shoot in black and white. I know I was just saying how awesome God is but I also question how could there be and who pissed it off if something, someone so everything to me could be taken away. Me and God got a relationship like that. If I can’t question it mind to mind then who. Today has been an emotional day. One of ups and downs and all for the same reason…LOVE.
This may become my mantra:
I love you more than all of the words I have ever spoken and wrote and all of the actions I have ever taken can show
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